I have been meaning to start this blog for about two years now. It was my New Year’s Resolution to start blogging in 2014. What stopped me? FEAR. I was actually dusting off my writing skills for someone else. I wrote one article. I thought it was sweet and simple and thoughtful. Then, that person told me they DIDN’T want me to write for them. They said, “Nobody cares what you have to say, anyway.”
Nobody cares what I have to say.
NOBODY cares what I have to say.
NOBODY CARES what I have to say.
I let that statement sink in to my spirit. When I allowed that to happen, FEAR settled in. You can’t start a blog. Nobody cares what you have to say. You are certainly no expert on any topic. You want to write about Motherhood? Sure you’re a Mom, but what do you really know? You struggle every day. Some days are good, yes, but some days you fail miserably at being a good parent. What if you make a fool out of yourself? What if you really do suck at writing? What if you fail?
FEAR. I allowed FEAR to eat at me. I continued to talk and talk and talk to my friends (sorry peeps!) about blog ideas, articles, what content I could put out there that might be encouraging or relatable to other moms. But I didn’t. I just keep letting FEAR keep me captive. Kept telling myself that I wasn’t good enough. I continued to tell myself that nobody cared what I had to say.
It actually makes me cry. Not kidding you. I’m sitting here in the public library with my piles of scrap paper surrounding me (which have a TON of ideas and thoughts and dreams and goals scribbled on them), and I’m welling up. I can’t believe I was so weak. I can’t believe I let some other person tell me MY value. I cannot believe that I allowed myself to be paralyzed by FEAR for so long.
So what makes today different? It’s my birthday. The day that I was brought into this world. I’ve seen 36 of these special days so far in my life, and if I’m lucky, I’m not even halfway to the other side. This day is about birth. This day represents a new beginning.
I’m giving myself a birthday gift today. I’m taking the word FEAR out of my vocabulary. I am shaking off the chains that hold me down from my highest potential. I am a good person. I do matter. I have value, and people DO care what I have to say.
FEAR is like cancer. It can get inside and spread until it paralyzes us and crushes our spirit. FEAR is a dream killer. There is hope, though. You can wrestle FEAR down, shove it in a box, set the box on fire, and be free. (If only it were that easy!)
I can’t take away your FEAR, but I can offer you this…
You are a good person. You matter. You have value.
Don’t wait for some special day to get over your FEAR. Start today, because what you have to offer the world is too important to wait one more day. Don’t allow FEAR to kill your dreams.
Go for it!